I booked a flight tonight to go back to Missouri to be with some of my family when they scatter my grandmother's ashes. I was really torn about going or not going and some of you gave advice that turned out to be very helpful (thank you!), but after thinking about it a lot, in the end I decided to go for my mom's sake. I couldn't justify not going because of the cost, because I found a really cheap ticket. I couldn't justify not going because of time with my son, because his dad was very supportive and nice about it and said he is happy to trade a weekend with me so I don't miss out on time with him. I found a flight that doesn't even interfere with work...I'll be about 2 hours late for work on the day of the return flight, but that isn't much and no one cares at all. My boss offered to let me take the whole day off if I wanted to, but I didn't want to. I just want to go and do a nice thing for my family and then come home as soon as possible. I loved my grandmother and I was very close to her and she knew my heart...but this thing isn't for her..it is for what family needs to do to feel at peace with things and be able to move on and feel closure. I don't feel the same way about all of that-I know where my grandma is now and I feel like I honored her when she was alive and in the things i do now...but I do feel that my family needs support, and so that was my reasoning in the end, and now that it is settled, I feel good about it.
Went hiking today with the husband and dog. That was nice. The dog is tired now and all sacked out on the couch. Need to take him out more often. Me too, of course that is a good work out for all of us!